I've been doing a bit of thinking lately, about my life and what I've done with it and what I can do with it. For so many years my life was about vengeance. Finding the monster who killed my mother and making him pay was all I could think about. Every move I made in life was directed toward achieving that goal. It took finding him for me to realize that there are more important things in life than vengeance. My mother knew that. It's what she lived for, what she fought for, and ultimately, what she died for. It's so strange to think that, had my mother won that fight, none of us might be here today.
Well, needless to say, all of this soul-searching has led me to make some decisions about my life and where it's headed. It's definitely time for me to make some changes. The first change is about my journal or, more specifically, the user name I chose to create my journal, "avenging son". That's got to go. I realize that I could just change my user name, but this is about new beginnings, a fresh start. So, I've decided to simply create a whole new journal for myself. You can find it here.
I realize this is a seemingly small gesture, but it means quite a bit to me. And it's certainly as good a place to start as any.